Don't know what to do
Mood:  don't ask
To day is the day before my anniversary and I don't understand why I got married. My husband has rejected all the things I want to do to celebrate the day. He does'nt want to go to the beach and he does'nt want to go to Lake Blackshear. I want to spend time with him, but he does'nt want to spend time with me. It is like he does'nt want me and scared to tell me. I can't read his mind. He want talk to me at all. I tried to make a sexual advance on him and he was'nt interested. I need for him to tell me what his problem is so I can deal with the cituation.  We have only been married a year and he has already started acting not interested. This is a mess. He should have told me he didn't want me so we could have avoided this cituation. signed perplexed

The maddness of men
Mood:  don't ask
Look today I don't understand why me say stupid stuff, like shut up and the police is after you. They need to be more sensible about things.  I know me have low self esteem but this is ridiculious. I don't like being pissed off. If you don't want to cook me something don't worry about it. You don't work and it would be nice. since I am the one working. I come home and have to listen to your sorry day. Who cares. I see why you don't have many friends. I need more energy to deal with this. Can't seem to understand why you have so many negative things to say about everybody. But you don't have any good things to say. You are a dark person and don't know it. I am a positive person, a person of light. This man who can't read and just can count say write about how it feels about messing up my life. How ignorant can't you be. People who can't read and have a low selfesteem say the craziest things about life, they wan't to bring you down in gutter with them.

Just checking

Today I got a lesson in motherhood. After you feed them and clothes them. love them and doctor on them. Then they turn their backs on you and tell you they are not bothered. I don't understand them. They are the 3rd and 4th generation. They don't know what love is and don't care. Now at 17 she thinks she is grow. Lord only if she knew the truth she would wish to be a baby again. God has to bring her to a reality check. I like this blog. I can think out loud. I wonder will my daughter ever come to reality before it is to late.  Also today a friend of my oldest daughter buried her 19 year old son. Lord please help these teenagers before you come back. So many people are not ready. Lord help me to get ready for your coming. Give me strength and courage to endure until the end. Amen

Rainy days
Today is a rainy day. I had to drive a little bit in it. It is also the day everybody wants to stay home and sleep. I took my grandson to have some surgery and got some numbing medicine on my lip. now my lip feels like somebody punched me in it. I hope the effects where off so. I am suppose to be going out with my husband.  Not pretty.

GOOD FOOD
HEY I WISH I COULD GO AND GET ME SOME GOOD LOBSTER AND CRAB LEGS. BUT I HAVE TO WORK. MAYBE NEXT TIME WHEN I HAVE SOME MONEY. TODAY ISNT THE DAY.

Todays Bible Verses
Matthew 6:1-4 NLT version. Take care! Don't do your good deeds publicly, to be admired, because then you will lose the reward from your Father in heaven. When you give a gift to someone in need, don't shout about it as the hypocrites do-blowing trumpets in the synagogues and streets to call attention to their acts of charity! I assure you, they have received all the reward they will ever get.  But when you give to someone don't tell your left hand what your right hand is doing. Give your gifts in secret, and your Father, who knows all secrets, will reward you. Amen

Blogging
HEY THIS IS NEW TO ME AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO BLOG SO IF I CAN GET SOME HELP FROM SOMEBODY OUT THEIR IN THE BLOG WORLD I WOULD GREATLY APPRECIATE IT . THANKS