A quik thought.
Mood:  not sure
Today is not a good day. I can't understand how a man can say he loves you and then tell you ain't shit and never will be shit. I think that is  a lye. I find it hard to one minute say you love me and next say all those words. The word of God say you can't have blessing and cursing coming out the same vessel. So which one is it. I have a wake up call that has come this way. I am trying to find out what it means to be at a lost for words. This a wake up call for all people in a relationship. If your spouse all ways says nasty thing to you all the time and say it was the achol. They are not Jamie Foxx. So that is really what is in their hearts. They really mean what they say. So I have to make this decision on my on. I have to see If I can live with this hurtfull thing. I wish I would have come to this decision before I got married. Now I just can't make a hasty decision. I have to pray and really wait on God for some good advise. This hard on me I just can't smile and think this never happened. This is a deep hurt that I have to nurse back to health or to a place where I can live with myself. only God knows where we go from here. Will write more next time. Goodnite